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(no subject) [Aug. 4th, 2007|11:15 am]
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]

As an upcoming engineer who has seen it too many times, I would like to say the following:

When it comes to soul-searching questions and difficult points in life, fuck the mentality that 'logic' should supercede 'emotion' (or vice-versa) to the point where one of the two is completely removed from the equation. Don't you dare bring emotion up expecting it to simply be written off.

And screw the logical arguments made that fail to take everything into consideration, though they claim they do.

Edit: "tainted by emotion"

I want to crush people.
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Rawr? [Jul. 18th, 2007|10:39 am]
[mood |exanimateAlright]
[music |When We Die - Bowling for Soup]

Ok, so...update, update...

Well, there's a few reasons I'm here. The main one is that I have nothing to do at work right now, and I've had nothing to do for a few days, so I've been passing the time in whatever way possible. I got my 'final' notice that my LJ account with be expiring in the near future, so that encouraged me to come here. I figured if they're going to, ya know, remove the paid benefits, I'd rather not have more than the limits of a basic account as far as userpics and mood icons go, etc. Maybe they'll revert it, as their email says, but maybe they'll just disable the features and kinda crop off what doesn't belong anymore, which, if nothing's there that's really out of place, my journal would remain more or less the same.

So, I've deleted most of my userpics, and I've got the little foxes for the icons now. I'd use the cats, but I see them way too much. I see the foxes too, but not quite as frequently.

I figured while I'm here I'd go ahead and post something. It's only been what, a few months since I've done anything on here? Well, I still skim my friends page every now and then, and it's good to at least know no one's vanished off the face of the earth (aside from me). I'm just dropping by and saying hi to people. If you hate me, heya. If you don't, hello. And all that stuff inbetween, too.

I'll probably still use my LJ from time to time, but as you all know already, it's not gonna be very common, I imagine. Any updates I do post will likely be kinda short, as well. I don't want to get too 'into it' so to speak, because it almost always results in too much drama.

Let's see...I've been working at HP for around two months now. I'm just not working in a department that's really beneficial to me. I'm an engineer in a heavy comptuer science area. That'd be fine, if I wasn't in a strictly testing environment. Test this software, test that one, set up a new environment for testing, and write error reports and guides for users who don't know where the start button is. While it is good to know procedure for testing and all the documentation that needs to be taken care of, I'm not even getting that outta this place. Some design area woulda been nice, but as much as I'd prefer something else, I'm not going to complain. I'm here to get HP on my resume, and it's gonna be there now. It's just weird working in a place where you know you can't do much for them, and they know it too (my situation got me put in this group - wasn't a normal job application).

I still play WoW, but it's just pissing me off more and more. No need to go into details there, I'm just tired of my guilds' requirements. So much for being the guild for us old members of EQ that didn't want to raid as much as we used to - it just keeps getting more and more progress driven, and it feels more and more like a job. Cause of that, I rarely play.


But I play that too. If you don't know what a Tarutaru is, google it. Here, I'll even do it for you. Tarutaru on Google. It'll at least show the game :p

As a result, I need to cut back on some of my monthly fees. TTR.com, sorry, you were a fun idea, but you've dwindled into little more than hosting space. I'll try once to transfer ownership, but if it doesn't work very easily, that's it, I'm canceling, I'm done. Considering I may need a domain name and some slight hosting for my Senior Design (Freaking SrD. Burn in hell, as far as I'm concerned), I'm at least letting that drop. It'll save my a good amount per year. Same with a few other things, like LJ - it'll add up, but if I continue playing two MMOs it'll do little more than balance out. So maybe WoW will be done, or at least frozen, once the semester picks back up. I will not be able to play as much as they want me to, and it just causes a headache a lot of the time, so forget it.

So, there you go. I've been working (I'm tired of it, heh), I've been playing games, both online and off...aannnnd that's about it. Once again, hello people *waves*
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Oh? [Mar. 22nd, 2007|01:05 am]
[mood |tiredtired]
[music |Magnet Man - MegaMan 3]

Lunar's updating? What the hell's going on?

Well, for all you people used to me not updating anymore, don't worry, this really isn't an updated. Worse yet for those of you who hate these things - it's a meme! So, no real post for you, Blu :p

RPG Meme, mwahaha!Collapse )

Ok, I'm done. Mwahaha, again.
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You know, I never was good with subjects [Feb. 6th, 2007|04:15 pm]
[mood |okayOkay]
[music |Blue Water, Blue Sky - Guilty Gear]

It's official - bubble tea is terrible :p

Had to put that in there, heh. I had tried it once my freshman year and was left with a...very bad impression, but I thought it could have been because the flavor I got coupled with getting it from an anime store could have been big factors there (I got watermelon, and it was good at first, but I got sick of the flavor very quick). While I was out with Thuy we ended up getting some. This time I was smarter and I got something that didn't have the capacity to be 'too sweet' in a syrupy sense - I got chocolate, which ended up being like a frappuccino since they didn't have as much sweetener as usual, not that I minded.

The drink itself was fine, but....what is it, tapioca? The 'bubbles' that make bubble tea what it is literally force me to stop drinking after awhile. There's something about them...the texture, the consistency of it - it just makes me shudder whenever I eat one of them. I felt it coming this time, so I stopped, but if I eat too many of those things my stomach just starts feeling really sick. Perhaps that's something with the chemicals in the tapioca itself, or perhaps it has to do with my mind already hating the texture. I don't know what it is about it. However, I can say that after trying it a second time, I don't think I'll be ordering bubble tea of any sort anymore. I know some people who like it - it's just not my thing I guess. On the plus side, the lids that were on the cups were from Japan (it *looked* like katakana) and had cute characters on them, heh.

The food was good, though. First time I think I've ever had Thai food, and the experience was much better than the first time I had Chinese in an actual Chinese-environment restaurant. Not really being a patron of Chinese, I was apprehensive, but it turns out the Thai stuff was quite good. Or maybe it's just that I like seafood and it's hard to screw up shrimp :P

Thuy? Who's Thuy? [Now with philosophical-ending!] Collapse )
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Class, class, and...LJ! [Jan. 23rd, 2007|11:57 pm]
[mood |goodFine]
[music |Stray - Wolf's Rain]

And so it has begun, as it tends to do at the beginning of each semester.

Also, as it tends to begin, it tends to give me a new schedule each time. Here there be dragons.

More under the cut, kupo!Collapse )

Ok, now's when I'd say I'm tired and I'm going to sleep, but I'm not. I'm going pick up a scarf someone made for me - badass. I'll talk to all of ya later - take care!

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A quickie: [Jan. 17th, 2007|04:01 am]
[mood |tiredTired]
[music |Karma - Bump of Chicken]

Heh, just felt like saying I've had my first run in with ice on a 'large' scale. Large as far as Texas is concerned, at least. I've never had to scrape ice off my car before, so it probably wasn't a good sign that my first experience with it involved a frozen key hole. It took awhile just to carve through the ice so I could get to the keyhole, then it wouldn't turn for quite some time :( Even after forcing it in, there was no way the door was going to open. Completely frozen shut, but thankfully the trunk hatch worked. We climbed in through there and started the car, let it start heating up, and then I tried rolling down my windows.

As it turns out, I could roll down my windows just fine. The only problem was that after rolling them down I had another set of windows, each over half a centimeter thick. Honestly, the ice was that thick everywhere on my car, so I'm glad I went somewhere tonight, otherwise it would be about a whole centimeter this coming morning. I've got pictures on my phone, but sadly I don't have a way to transfer data from my phone to my laptop, so those will have to wait another time. Ice windows are seriously badass, though.

All in all, I think we spent about 45 minutes just scraping ice off the windows, the wipers, the lights, everything. There was massive carnage on the ground, and I feel sorry for the person who parked there next.

It may not have been much for those used to ice, but it's so incredibly rare here, and Blu, that's why there's coverage of it. No one cares about the normal things that occur, cause people know how to deal with them. With ice like this, though, did you try traveling? No one's on the road, cause they know they have no idea what to do. Those that were on the road were driving *fast* which shows more idiocy.

When it comes down to it, it was just cool, cause it was something we had never had to do before. Apparently there's some strategies - like throwing a pot of hot water on a window to melt most of the ice. Nah, we had a little razor that you use to remove stickers from cars. And boy did it get used.

Ah, ice is fun. I love cold weather ^_^ Now if only we'd get some snow ;_;

A random question - does anyone know of / have any decent tilable blue-ish backgrounds? Preferably technology blue - you know of what I speak. I've been thinking of redoing the background to my LJ - I've had that Tails up there far too long, and he's already represented in my mood icons. I'm not sure what to put up, but it seems like a generic backgroundish image would be good, as to not detract from the actual text itself, heh. Hmm, despite the coolness of technology blue, with the other colors a lighter, paler blue may work best. Ah hell, I dunno ^^;

And I'm out!

Edit: Oh yeah, starting playing FF XII, and I just have to say, once more, that moogles are awesome. Completely ^_^

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San Antonio, here we are [Jan. 15th, 2007|10:01 pm]
[mood |boredbored]
[music |Karma - Bump of Chicken]

So, here I am, back in San Antonio. Came back on Sunday afternoon. Lord knows I don't want to be here, and it's pretty much the same reason as it was last January after Christmas break. You all know how sick I am of classwork, so it should go without saying that I don't care too much about getting back into the grueling groove of crap here. I'm curious about this coming semester - harder classes, but I think overall I should have more time - I don't have the TA/tutoring thing going anymore. The department can't afford us, heh.

Regardless, the biggest reason I didn't want to come back here was that I'm once again going to miss my friends. I've only got one person here in San Antonio that means much to me, and I'm glad to know I'll be seeing her (if she ever moves back on campus - where are you, anyway?). Regardless of that, and I don't know if this will sound mean or not, it's not the same even then. I can't really put my finger on it exactly, and part of it is likely because when I see my Houston friends we don't really have classes or homework so there's a difference in atmosphere, but I really wish I hadn't gone to a college where I didn't know anyone. Sure, I can get along with people, but it still leaves with things to be desired, which I don't really realize until I get back in Houston and have to leave again.

On a non-emoish note, I have to say that Tales of the Abyss is probably the best RPG I've ever played. The main reason for that is due to its multiplayer capabilities - Over the course of three days I was able to play through the game a second time, but this time Nathan and Matt were there the entire time, and we ripped through the game. I can't remember the last time, if ever, that I played a game 18 hours straight, then 10 each of the next days (only because my parents were annoyed that I was spending so much time away from them, meh). Regardless of if I ever did or not, none of those times would have matched how 'fun' it was this time. I'm starting to think that's one of the reasons I enjoy my time in Houston so much - when it comes down to it I don't have anyone to really play games with here in San Antonio. Sure, we've got melee and mario kart, but when it comes to non-partyish games, there's no one really around. I suppose it's because there's only a few people here who even play RPGs, and of those they're only players. What I mean by that is that they can't bring themselves to watch someone play a game - they have to be doing something. I understand the reasoning behind that, I'm just not one of those people. It's probably due to me being brought up with my brother, when I'd sit around and watch him play Dragon Warrior and Final Fantasy. Even though I wasn't playing, I was still able to enjoy the storyline and the like. The bonus with the Tales series is that they add multiplayer to battles if it's so desired, so when you get several people who can all watch, so to speak, it becomes fun. I'm under the impression it's because a game, for me, is most enjoyable if the experience is shared between several people. For that reason, Nathan and I have been discussing playing through the game again come Spring Break or something. Sure, they all know the storyline now too, but it's just fun to be able to go through it with several people. It's a long term experience, whereas most multiplayer things aren't.

I should rephrase part of what I just said. I'm sure there are people here who would play through a game like that, but the ones that would don't really have an interest in the deeper part of a friendship - when ya start talking about philosophies and sharing secrets, that kinda thing. I just fit in Houston better than I do in San Antonio.

On a related note with the parents thing I mentioned above, I don't really see a problem with what hours someone is awake and someone is asleep. Apparently all break my parents were annoyed that I slipped into a different sleep pattern than they're in. I went to sleep around 5-7 AM and got up around 2-4 PM most of the time. I heard a few reasons from them, but none of them really had much weight to them. One was that my sleep schedule for college is different than it is at home. Well, yeah, but it doesn't take long to get your body into a different sleep pattern. All it takes is one or two days of setting your alarm early and actually getting up - once that happens your body should feel tired much earlier, and bam, you're better. The other thing was that the house was on a different schedule, or more precise, they're on a different schedule. Well, that's fine. It shouldn't matter at all what schedules two people are on so long as they don't conflict - as long as I don't wake my parents up and am generally quiet when they're asleep, which I know I generally was, then that argument loses its ground. Tsh...heaven forbid that I'm more of a night person than they are. What can I say? I like the night. Even when there's a freaking ice storm in Texas right now and there's actually ice outside. Now that almost never happens, heh.

I don't really have much else to say. I'm bored here and don't really feel like doing anything. Again, I apologize for not being around much at all. I don't know if that'll change or not, but following the trends of the past, I imagine it will.

Also, I finally posted the retirement thing on TTR. It's about time, heh. Sully, if you're leaving you'll probably want to post something soon too, or at least have one of us tell the rest of the members, heh. As of now they only know that I'm leaving.

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I wonder what it means... [Jan. 1st, 2007|07:11 am]
[mood |uncomfortableUncomfortable]
[music |Theme of Grandia - Noriyuki Iwadare]

Yes, I've seen videos of battles during wars. Yes, I've seen the videos of troops in our Apache helicopters dropping bombs with deadly accuracy on terrorists and the objects nearby. I've heard them whooping and hollering while doing it (I can't blame them to be honest. I'm not trying to be mean here, but in any situation like that you've got to find some way to keep yourself going, be it through forced humor or not. Otherwise you'll go crazy during times it matters most. Those men reflected on their actions later, I'm sure of it).

But I had never seen someone in particular die...until now. Something where the primary focus is showing a certain person die. Perhaps it's because it was in a....non-grotesque way (in comparison to other methods, such as decapitation). Perhaps it's because of who it was that I actually saw die. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel after that.

Part of me is disturbed. After all, I had never seen someone be killed in reality. A certain image will be in my mind for awhile.

However, I'm not as disturbed as I imagined I would be. That image won't be there as long as it would for many people. All through the video I kept telling myself I would have to close it soon; I couldn't watch. Part of me wanted to do it as a way of...facing reality, so to speak. Part of me did it out of curiosity. I wanted to see what my reactions would be. But I was still scared to watch. Then it happened, and while surprised, it wasn't the ultimate shock I expected it to be. It's quite possible that's because it was a video. If I was there in person I don't know what I would have done. In fact, I saw a morbid joke using the actual footage a few moments after, and I have to say I chuckled. I'm not sure if that's sickening or not. I know it's morbid humor, but I don't feel right partaking in it right after seeing it happen.

It seems a lot of people are affected when they see something like this. Many have very strong feelings. I know one of the things I try to do is to look at the big picture in order to keep some sense of order in my life. It makes bad things more bearable; it's simply a matter of not letting things get to you too much, whether they be good or bad. It's like the opposite of being bi-polar, kinda sorta. I wonder, though, if my reaction to this particular video makes me a cold person. How should I feel? I really don't know, but it's...unsettling that I doubt I lose any sleep over watching it. I feel like something should have been triggered, but not much has. Some may call me a robot for not having some sort of huge emotional reaction. I don't know.

No, I won't link to the video. It's around in many places now I hear. If you desire to watch it and cannot find a link, I'll send it, but I'd rather not link to it completely out of the blue.

Edit: Happy New Year everyone. Hope 2007 will be great for all!
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I know I owe you guys an update, so here it is [Dec. 30th, 2006|06:25 pm]
[mood |hopefulFine]
[music |The Black Mages - Vamo' Alla Flamenco (Final Fantasy IX)]

A Merry Belated to Christmas to all, Krazy Kwanza, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Early New Year, and a Happy Birthday to me :P

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Catch you all later, yes I'm still alive.


P.S. This wasn't posted in the morning because our cable was down again, so I don't want to hear anything from a certain someone :P
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The last day, and the most stressful [Dec. 15th, 2006|01:00 am]
[mood |worriedWorried]
[music |Wind - Akeboshi]

It all comes down to tomorrow...well, technically today. Studied for electronics for about seven hours, didn't really learn much. Diodes still scare the crap out of me. FETs I'm ok with. BJTs I've got down. I only need a 35 to pass the course with a C-, but I really want to get at least a B in the course, which puts me somewhere around a 50. I think I can at least get that...but the anxiety doesn't fade no matter how well you think you know the material.

It's not that, though. The test will happen - it'll be done with. The micro project is due tomorrow, and there's no way in hell I can finish it by then. I don't think there's any way anyone can finish it in that amount of time (most of us aren't very far into the program with finals week being as it's been). I don't know what's going to happen. I know Rezaie is a big softie and often accepts projects late, even into the summer, but I still hate doing this. Technically, it's worth 10% of my grade if all projects are weighted the same, and with how I've done in the class a zero would put me at a 90. I think no matter what I'll be able to turn it in late and end up with an A- or an A if he's nice (The final only took me five minutes; that's gotta help this situation), but....there's no way I can finish it by 5:00 tomorrow. I must say, having something you have to do immediately after your last final, which is difficult enough already, weighs you down. It's supposed to be over after electronics...but it's not ;_;

The semester has been hell, up till the very last day. I'll be back in full-swing after the weekend when I'm back in Houston - hope everyone's doing alright; sorry for missing any important entries this week.
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